With compelling arguments for both sides, and several personal instances too...I'm not quite sure which school of thought I subscribe to. There are instances where it seems one has no apparent control of an outcome and of course several instances where certain steps lead to a desired outcome. Or is it all just randomness?
They say change is the only constant and on the verge of leaving Dubai, I suddenly feel the need of an audit of friends. I've taken my long list of so called friends which was around 400. Then I subtracted colleagues that I really wouldn't probably hear from again. I got 295. Then I subtracted all the people that I wasn't out to that left me with 40. Subtracted people who hadn't called in a month. I got 10. From then, I did a further personal audit on the basis of who among these I would actually invite for my wedding, if I ever had one and I got 4. Good enough for me :)
This of course doesn't include my friends from the choir, who I am close to, but not out to...we are quite close-knit...and I probably would be out to them if there wasn't this religious angle to it. But I guess they'll always be a big part of my life.
And last but not the least, my roomies Jackie & lu who again I'm not out too.
Well, I won't be able to be part of the Chennai queer march this year again :(
But mebbe in Bombay in September :)
As of 14th August, I'll no longer be the Pajero-driving, camel milk-drinking, shwarama-eating, copy-writing guy in Dubai like my journal claims. I'll be a cycle-riding, holiday-enjoying, tax-paying, traffic battling, fly-swatting Madrassi (or is it Chennai-vasi???)
lot of mixed feelings at this stage, but no real regrets.